So Here we go. I don't even know what day number it is at this point. I ended last week on a much better note than I began it on.

I worked out after work Friday night. An hour on the elliptical. An hour after work on a Friday nigh.. Yes this is my life.... It's totally in my head that I don't get the same work out from an elliptical than I do when I would go running. It was hard. It at times felt like it was dragging on for FOREVER. But I survived. And best part? I'm doing it again this week... X4!!!

Anyways. I've got to be diligent on the working out front. I'm going to be tired... I'm not going to want o... but if I want to cross that finish line in February I need to be putting in all of me to these work outs. To quote Mister Tommy "The body follows the mind not the other way around. Be strong." I am listening for when my ankle is hurting but I can push myself and do better than I may think I can. I tend to get caught up in my head a lot more than I really should.

I'm seeing changes slowly but surely. I went to Ridgedale with mom and got to do some shopping.. I know I am not dropping lbs.. which I'm fine with.. but I can tell with my body and how I'm eating and how I'm working out that I am beginning to reap the benefits of these lifestyle changes. I tend to have more energy, I'm in a better mood... my weight although staying pretty even, has been shifting, I can tell parts of me are getting smaller? If that makes sense.. It's not like it'll be an overnight change and I waaaay understand and accept that. I'm happy with the progress that I have been making.

I really wanted to take a moment from updating on progress and truly show my gratitude for my friends and family that have been supporting me and keeping me on track with everything. A real big shout out to Sylwia. She not only puts up with my ridiculous snap chats from the elliptical but she has been crazy supportive and motivating. Like last week.. I was not doing a thing last week. I was off. Bad mood. Bad funk. Working out was not really happening and she texted me, Syl.. I'm totally sharing because I saved those messages and they're my motivation when I feel like quitting or feel like it's too hard.

"I was stalking your blog a little bit.. Keep going! the first days are always the hardest. I have tried so many times to run 'regularly' and 10-15 days in to it I always quit. You need to get over the hill and it's a breeze from there. Don't let all the hard work you put in the past few weeks go to waste! You got this and I'm so proud of you. Keep going because you're a great inspiration for me! I love you!"

That's really kind of become my mantra for this... trip I'm going on. "I got this." I find myself telling myself that time and time again. "This is not as hard as I'm making it out to be... You've got this in you." Also... Who could ask for a better sister than her? ("sister" for those who are all like "I didn't know you had a sister!" Three summers together at camp and you really are family) But I also wanted to thank my friends who comment on my blog, my statuses, or message me just to see how things are going when I've taken more than a few days between updates (Another nod to Sylwia "Blog Updates!!! Please!!!") Also.. if I snap chat you from the elliptical.. it is A. Because I love and/or appreciate and/or miss you and B. because if I don't I really may die from boredom. SO BORING. but maybe it'll start to grow on me... and/or C... I haven't gotten any audio books yet. I tried to read on the elliptical and that made my head hurt.. too much moving and it just was not a good mix.

Anyways....

I forgot how many days until my race.. but it's a 10k... that's a little over  6 miles... I've got 90 minutes to do it.. that's like a 15 minute mile... Doable.. I'm worried about being able to do 6 of them in a row though... but if me working out is any indication.... I was on the elliptical for an hour.. did 4 miles.. that's pretty much on track to what I will need to be able to run. And you have NO idea how bad I want to finish and get that medal. That'll be the cherry on top to this journey and life I'm choosing to go on and live.

Alright. Peace out people.... 

Yeah I might need some sleep....

Ugh. Monday. Here I come. Get ready. And thanks for making it through my ramblings.