Day 3/90

So I decided instead of plaguing facebook with my updates, I'm going to kick off a blog about it. So it's going to be a bit ramble-y, and I figure those people who have been amazing and supportive will keep me motivated and hold me accountable to staying on track and keep updating on my process... and no. sorry I'm not going to be posting my weight. Yes some of my self worth is tied into that number, but I'm focusing not so much on the number, but on feeling and being healthier period. Sure do I want to lose 50lbs? Yes. Is it doable? Heck yes. Is it going to take lots of work? Tons and tons. But I'm committed. I'm excited to begin this journey. 90 days and I want this to be my new lifestyle, to be more conscious of what I'm putting into my body and how I'm being active. So what's the story Kim? Well, I've been stalled in my life for a while. I did the weight loss thing, I lost about 50 lbs in the past year but I've stalled. I've not been putting in the effort and I've not really been focused. I feel like it's a dis-service to myself not being the best that I can be or feeling great all the time. So I decided I need to make some serious changes here and get back on track. I got in contact with a friend from High School, big football athlete, I'm pretty sure if anyone knows his stuff, it's this guy. I had a trainer when I belonged to lifetime fitness and no offense to her (not like she's going to read this) but she was not motivating, she didn't hold me accountable... she actually instead of calling me and asking me where I was for morning class, talked to my boss (her friend) to get me to come in. How impersonal? I was not having it. I gave up. If the effort and belief isn't going to be put in me then why should I put any effort into going into the gym and sweating? No motivation. I really should have been doing anyways, but doing it for me. So why not ask for help? (I hate asking for help because I feel like I'm a failure even though I realize I'm not an expert in athleticism or weight loss.. I should be asking so I do it right... but still.. I'm in my own head too much). So better to ask someone who actually knows me, go back to Kindergarten with at Birchview and is passionate about this and is going to hold my butt accountable. Anways. I'm sure there's much more psychological stuff that's going into this than I want to get into here, but a break-up also might have given me the kickstart I needed. I should better myself. Take time to take care of me and not just do the superficial things but really get down to the nitty gritty and kick butt. So the motivation? I am signed up to run a 10k in the end of February down in Disney. I am not a runner. I don't think I have ever enjoyed running. But now... I don't hate it. I don't know that I'm totally on that runner's high yet.. but the hardest part is actually going out and hitting the pavement... but when I do.. yeah there's that period where it's like "Oh my god... Why am I doing this? This is the worst idea. It's hot and gross and I'm hot and gross and..." but I hear people's voices in my head (well mainly one person's and not in a crazy way fyi) Nicole Anderson (or Anderson... or Hans Christian for those of you who don't know here or may get confused if I refer to her as such... I've known her since sixth grade)... I'm running with her in Disney in Feb. And she knows I can push myself further than I do. I am stronger than I think I am and capable of much more than I do. So I hear her, usually yelling at me as to why I stopped, she knows I can keep going. She's that tough love aspect in my life when it comes to working out. So I've got 6 months... 10k... that's like 6.something miles... to do in 90 minutes... it's totally obtainable and I'll get a medal if I do... And I figure if I die doing it, I'll die in Disney, the happiest place on earth. It's going to take so much work though. I'm so pumped for it. So uhh... where was I going with all of this.... So this blog. I'm going to write about my progress and my struggles here, maybe document what I'm eating, or how much I'm exercising... Although I've got a sweet smart phone app for that, I even bought a cool pedometer that links up with my phone and computer and updates for how many steps I've done. It's also helpful that this is falling with some health competitions with work... Of which I'm currently logged in for 4 different ones: 10k-a-day Walk or run to work, or everywhere, so you can achieve 10,000 steps or more every day on your pedometer. It's the equivalent of 5 miles a day! Move More Minutes In this challenge the goal is to log 150 minutes in workouts a week. Any exercise counts, just log the duration and start accumulating your minutes! Weight Loss In this 8-week goal based challenge, participants are being challenged to lose 5% of their current body weight. AND Fruit and Veggie During this challenge, do your best to earn 20 points each week by eating fruits and vegetables. 1 point for every 50 calories in fruits or vegetables. I know it's going to take time, patience, persistence and support but I know I have the tools and people to be able to help me succeed. And more important I have a drive now. I'm going to succeed because there is no plan b. Day 3.