Day 14.

Props to Sylwia for keeping me on the ball, I've been meaning to update but this week has been so strange. I was not feeling well Tuesday and Wednesday, took time off from work but now I feel better. Things are falling into place. Like really.

Okay let me break it down for you. I kick serious butt. So today was my third consecutive day going out and working out. It wasn't as hard as I thought it would be.. and I think I might have had my first "runner's high" I was told it will happen.. I don't even know how to describe it.. it was towards the end of my run.. I just felt like.. I don't know. My legs just knew what to do and I could push out that last quarter mile and boy did I.

I run out my emotions.. I don't break down for many people and I don't let a lot of people in because I don't feel like I want to be a burden and haven also found that most people just don't care about what I may be going through so why just go through the motions? I get really angry and run out my emotions. I think about the people in my life I care about, that truly mater, that have been supportive through everything... I run for them. Those SOB's that, at times I wish I could maybe run down with my car, or at least go back and erase their existence in my life... I run for them. Then there's me. I run for me. I run for the person I used to be, the person I am, the person I'll never be, and for the person I could be.

 Lemme break down the past 3 days and what I've done.

Wednesday- 40 minutes and ran 2.25 miles.

Thursday- 45 minutes and ran 1.91 miles.
Friday (Today)- 50 minutes and ran 2.45 miles.

 I realize that those times aren't really impressive.. but I'm super proud of those times! I had to retype these sentences a bunch of times... It was like I wanted to make excuses or try to justify to other people why those times mean a lot to me... I don't need people's validation to show that I'm doing a good job, although it certainly does help the ego every now and again. I am a work in progress and I feel like I'm progressing in the right direction...

 Food is a small struggle still.. mainly because okay.. the amount of protein I should be eating is like.. okay a lot of meat. I'm not that big a meat and potatoes kinda gal.. I tend more towards a vegetarian lifestyle.. not that well cooked protein isn't fabulous.. but it takes time to make stuff taste good! and if you rush it you get the uneatable chicken breast I had on Monday... or tried to have on Monday... So that's something I'm still working on I'm hoping that this weekend I can get together my meals for the week and have one less thing to really worry about. But other than that... I've been doing much better.. eating healthier.. I need to drink more water for sure... but I'm conscious of the decisions I'm making and if I have something that maybe isn't the greatest (those newton cookies my mom had out.. okay not horrible and I had 1 serving) I'm not going to beat myself up over. It's more motivation to make sure that I go out and do the work that I need to for when I may not be on top of that portion of this lifestyle.

So sorry for the delay in the blog. There you go. and I hope you do stay tuned to see how this turns out. I'm excited about my life.. Dare I say maybe a bikini for Florida in Feb? Psshhh. I'm not gonna push that far but 6 miles looks a lot more obtainable after a week like this.

BOOYAH.

...and some pictures!!

my trail buddy tonight.. didn't jump away let me get super close (camp much???)

panoramic view underneath the bridge I run over

I wish the colors turned out better.. it was gorgeous purple and pink tonight after the rain... like a watercolor painting...

signs that fall is coming.. the changing sumac

... bridge...

Hello friend. We meet again... the beginning of my run every time. I'm becoming a creature of habit with my trail.